Jenna's Blog

I want to bake so many cupcakes. For reals. I have so many ideas. I keep seeing adorable things on baking blogs that I really want to try. And ever since making cookies & cream cupcakes this week, I remembered how much I looooove baking. I think I would be perfectly happy just owning a bakery and baking cakes for the rest of my life.

I feel like making a list of all the cupcakes I want to make so I have ideas to look at and choose from next time I get inspired. :) Tell me which ones you think would be tasty.

- Chocolate Malt Cupcakes (topped with Whoppers)
- Chocolate Cupcakes with Mint Chip Frosting (topped with chocolate chips)
- Angel Food Cupcakes with Cherry Frosting (topped with maraschino cherries)
- Strawberry Lemonade Cupcakes [Strawberry cupcakes with Lemonade Frosting] (topped with strawberries)
- Peanut Butter Cup Cupcakes [Chocolate cupcakes with Reeses in the center and Peanut Butter Frosting] (topped with chocolate chips)
- Cookie Dough Cupcakes [Yellow cake mix cupcakes with cookie dough in the center and Vanilla Frosting] (topped with Cookie Dough Bites)
- Brownie Burger Cupcakes (see them here: http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3350/3623394451_d62e6c9a99_o.jpg)
- Mocha Cupcakes [Chocolate Cupcakes + Instant Expresso Powder with Mocha Frosting]
- Cupcake Cones [Chocolate Cupcakes baked inside Sugar Cones with Vanilla Frosting] (topped with rainbow sprinkles) (see them here: http://fancyflours.files.wordpress.com/2008/05/cupcakecones1.jpg)

Hmm, I thought I had a lot more ideas than that. But still, I think those are some pretty kickass ideas :D

So, this blog has kinda turned into a place for me to make lists when I'm bored. Haha. Oh well, I enjoy it.

15 SONGS I REALLY LIKE RIGHT NOW! [Yes, caps were necessary.]

1. Sometime Around Midnight - Airborne Toxic Event
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJ6uPd0NbG4

2. Take it Home - White Tie Affair
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOk2uHvbuh4

3. Concerta - Cash Cash
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjekPQsm8HM

4. Hey Girl - Keri Hilson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPLQ0DvwKSo

5. Sex On Fire - Kings of Leon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHhhcKxflMY

6. Starstrukk - 3OH3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKN_fDs7Cs0

7. Get Free - George Stanford
[couldn't find a video, but it is so good! Go find an illegal download :P]

8. She's So Lovely - The Butchies
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fZdk-HgbqG4

9. Chain Reaction - Kesha
[Also couldn't find a video. Very sexy song... It's very "Lady Gaga" so I'd suggest looking for it if you like her.]

10. Great DJ - Ting Tings
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=myJnsqGgxxM

11. A Dustland Fairytale - The Killers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=myJnsqGgxxM

12. Milkshake (Kelis Cover) - I Set My Friends on Fire
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fVmYkBAJoVE

13. I Almost Told You That I Loved You - Papa Roach
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7K3fIpuiuTk&feature=fvst

14. Champagne - Cavo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNisu0cprTw

15. I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cMxASjxRk1w&feature=fvst

BONUS: Obligatory MJ Song :)
Bad
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uG5NhkxQJQc

So, yes, Megan Fox is good-looking. But seriously, why is everyone acting like she is the hottest thing to bless this earth?

Here is a list of twenty-five women that I think are much, much hotter (or just generally.... you know, better) than Megan Fox.

Yep, this post is going to be pretty shallow. Oh well. :P

Alyson Hannigan


Amber Tamblyn


America Fererra


Anna Faris


Anne Hathaway


Ashley Tisdale


Beyonce


Blake Lively


Drew Barrymore


Ellen Page


Emma Stone


Gabrielle Union


Hayden Panettiere


Hilary Duff


Kat Dennings


Kate Hudson


Kelly Clarkson


Kiera Knightly


Kristen Stewart


Lauren Collins


Lily Allen


Michelle Trachtenberg


Mila Kunis


Rachel McAdams


Reese Witherspoon


Selena Gomez

This playlist is about how you are my best friend. And how I totally don't hold a grudge against you for leaving me.

Seriously.
Not at all.

I included songs that I think really describe how I feel about you really well. And I think that it will make you smile and think of me and all the great times we shared. I included some really inspirational lyrics that I think really express it well.

Have fun!

Love, Jenna

THE "I TOTALLY DON'T HAVE ANY SORT OF GRUDGE AGAINST YOU FOR LEAVING ME ALL ALONE IN OMAHA" PLAYLIST FOR RYAN, SOMEONE WHO IS TOTALLY NOT A HORRIBLE PERSON WHO SHOULD BE PUNCHED.

1. Lonely Day - System of a Down [This is a song about how I am totally not lonely without you. I'm totally cool with it.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2S2ZFpoD9sE

such a loneli day
& itz mine
the most lonliest day of my lyyyyf :(

2. Break Stuff - Limp Bizkit [This is a song about how I am totally not angry at you and i definitely don't want to beat you up]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_eCIjr1Mb0

I FEEL LYK SHIT
MI SUGGESTION IZ TO KEEP UR DISTANCE
CUZ RITE NAO IM DANGEROUS!!!!!!! ...
ALL THOSE MUTHERFUCKERZ THAT WANNA STAND UP
I HOPE U KNO I PACK A CHAIN SAWWWWW!!!!!!

3. Dickhead - Kate Nash [About how I think you are the best person on the planet]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfilqC3CSf0

y u bein a dickhead 4?
stop bein a dick head!

4. I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance [About how I am totally okay with you not being in Omaha with me. Seriously.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mpO-CUJcrR8

I'M NOOOOOOOOOOOT OOOOOOOOOOOO KAAAAAAAAAY
I'M NOT
OH
KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY-AYYYYYYYYYYYYYY-AYYYYYYYY!!!

5. Let the Bodies Hit the Floor - Drowning Pool [About how I am not totally homicidal whenever I think about how you left me all alone in my misery. I mean... lack of misery. I'M NOT SAD ABOUT THIS AT ALL.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sO_QntXc-c4

ONE. NUTHIN WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!1
TO. NUTHING WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!
THREE. NUTHING WRONG WITH ME!1111
FOR. NUTHIN WRONG WITH MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

6. Hate (I Really Don't Like You) - Plain White T's [About how I like you a lot as a person.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=efle7lmk1fg

H8 IS A STRONG WURD
BUT I REALLY REALLY REALLY DUNT LYK U!
NOW THAT IT'S OVA
I DUNT EVN KNO WUT I LYKED ABOUT U!!!!!!

7. Die Motherfucker Die - Dope [About how I hope you have a very long, successful life... without me... you know, whatever is best for you... I don't even care...]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyOO5OOkvXM

UR SO LAME
Y DON'T U JUST GO DIE, MOTHERFUCKER, DIE!
MOTHERFUCKER DIE!!!!!!!!!!!

8. Paralyze - Tila Tequila [About how I don't blame you for my unhappiness with my life]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GAdqlKHRIYk

memoriez... they fall apart whenever ur inside my head
take my tears, they say a lot since ur the one who put them there :'(

9. Scars - Papa Roach [About how I definitely don't consider hurting myself because YOU HATE ME. I mean... you don't hate me. And I don't hate you. We're cool. Totally cool.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60YkPPyKjE8

i tear mi hart open
i sew myself shut
my weakness iz that i care 2 much :(

10. I Fucking Hate You - Godsmack [About how I might feel if I hated someone. However, I don't hate you. Why would I hate you? It's not like you left me all alone. Hahaha... yeeah...]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkBU1aD88z8

I FUCKING HATE U!!!!!!!
UR SUCH A LIAR!!!!!!!!
I'D LOVE TO HANG U!!!!!!!!!1

11. Untitled - Simple Plan [Seriously. I'm fine.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gv52Y2rhac

how cud this happen to ME!?!?!
i made mi mistakes
got no where to run
lyk goes on as im fading away
i think of this lyf
i just wanna SCREAAAM...
how cud this happen to me????? :'(

12. Haters - Hilary Duff [About how I think you're so nice to me all the time!]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLqPDEowJ-s

UR THE QUEEN OF SUPERFICIALITY
KEEP UR LIEZ OUTTA MI REALITY
&& WHEN UR NICE ITZ JUST A POZE
UR 1 OF THOSE HATERZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!

13. You're Going Down - Sick Puppies [About how I definitely don't want to punch you. Not even a little!]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=70PlYpxHvsw

THIS IZ HARDLY WORTH FIGHTING FOR
BUT ITZ THE PETTY SHIT I CAN'T IGNORE
W/ MY FIST IN UR FACE!!!!!!!!!!
&& UR FACE ON THE FLOOR!!!!!!!11111111111

14. I Miss You - Miley Cyrus [This song has nothing to do with how I feel. Seriously. She is just so amazing I couldn't NOT put her on the playlist, you know? It's not like I actually miss you or anything... pssh... nope! I'm fine! I got my own life! And it is just great, let me tell you.... I MISS YOU SO MUCH. What? Did I just say that? Nope, you're imagining things. You must be drunk. And high. STOP TAKING THE METH RYAN. METH KILLS. PLEASE. STOP IT. YOU'RE DYING. LIVE ABOVE THE INFLUENCE!!! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH MY LIFE IF YOU'RE BUSY EATING METH ALL DAY!?!?!? *cough* I mean... um... I love you.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5hjR5_tbfg

i misssssss u
i misssssss ur smiiiiiiiiiile
&& i still shed a tear
every once in awhiyle
and even tho itz different now
ur still here sumhow
mi hart won't let you go
& i need u 2 kno
I MISS UUUUUUUUUUUUUUU :(

So, I LOVE SUMMER. I have been reflecting on how awesome it has been and it makes me really happy. I love my friends. :) The only thing that sucks is the fact that my parents try to run my life from time to time, but overall it has been pretty awesome. Though Kearney is a great town that gives me a lot of independence and whatnot, there are some experiences in Omaha I just never get while in Kearney. It is so nice to have those.

My birthday, for example. I was upset during my real birthday because it just didn't feel as special as it used to when I was younger and it made me really sad. If that had happened to me in Kearney, I would have just wallowed and cried until I fell asleep and that would have been the end of it. But, I wasn't in Kearney. I was here... and some of the greatest people are here :) Ryan and Keri made my birthday (or technically, the day after, but whatever) all that I wanted it to be... with lots of BALLOONS! And cupcakes! And car paint! It was the sweetest thing ever. I will always remember that as one of the most awesome friend moments of my life.

And the party at Keri's after my bday party was so fun too! Having my friends together with me just to be silly and have a good time was awesome. Everyone got along so well and the games we played and discussions we got into were HILARIOUS. Only my group of friends would be that interesting, hahaha.

Oh, and last wednesday was SUCH a good time. I loved hanging out with Ryan and Keri and talking about whatever came to mind. And when Keri went to bed me and Ryan had some good discussions... XD I swear, I don't know what I would do without that boy. It was a nice night filled with lots of laughs and new inside jokes. It may seem like just a stupid, silly night to some people... but it was really amazing. And I am going to miss Ryan sooo much when he leaves. Especially if we don't beat Paper Mario!

The best thing about summer is having time to do things that are pointless. Time to just sit on a couch with some chips, salsa, orange soda, and popcorn while playing Gamecube. Or time to drive down Bob Boozer and let a million balloons fly out your car windows. Or time to stay up til 4 AM spooning on a leather couch and talking in circles about nothing. :P

Anyways. I am not sure where this is going. I guess I just wanted to express my happiness that I have had so many good experiences this summer and I hope it doesn't stop. <3

Oh my god, WHAT a funny dream.

So I guess at this point it is graduation again. Like a bajillion people are at my house, even a bunch of people I don't know. And I was super confused as to why this would be the case... until I realize that for some reason, Dane Cook was at my grad party. He was just chilling outside on my front lawn smoking a cigarette. I saw him out my window and I was like "What the hell? Why is he at my house?" I didn't go up to him or anything because I didn't want to be annoying, so I just kept going about the party as usual.

But EVERYONE was freaking out about it. I went into my mom's bedroom and a bunch of women were in there changing their clothes so that they could try to look good for Dane Cook. I peeked in and Sammi's mom was in there, and she was like "Do you think Dane likes a more casual girl?" and she was wearing this pale pink tubetop thing and really short denim shorts. And I was like, "Umm... maybe!" and laughed awkwardly. I went to the bathroom and updated my facebook status to "Dane Cook is at my grad party WTF!?" When I emerged from the bathroom Sammi's mom came out and said "I decided to go with casual. I hope Dane likes iiiiiiiiit..." and ran out to the front lawn. Several women I didn't know did the same thing.

Then Keri, Ryan, and Brittany came up to me and said they had a plan to get Dane Cook's attention. And I was like "Umm, I don't think I want to be annoying about this." And Keri was like, "This totally won't be annoying it will just make us look really awesome." So I agreed and we went to go spy on Dane Cook, who was talk in a group of people. It was then where they told me the plan was to just throw each other far away so that we would end up in the group of people. And I was like, "How is that even necessary? Why don't we just walk over there like normal people?" But they didn't listen, and I ended up being thrown over to the group of people. However, i sort of missed and fell into a lawn chair and my clothes ripped off. Underneath I had a shiny, hot pink bikini on (one that, in real life, I REALLY WANT FROM WET SEAL). And I just kind of got up like it was no big deal and walked around my party in a bikini.

I then moved over to this group of beanbag chairs where me and my friends sat and talked about stuff. Then, Dane Cook came over and started to talk to us. And I don't remember what was talked about, but obviously since it was Dane Cook, it was something crude and sexual and naughty. But it was hilarious. And then he gave me tickets to his show in Omaha before he left.

And that is all I remember. XD I wish I had those tickets though.

So, as usual, my crazy dreams are coming back now that summer has started. During the school year I never get a deep enough sleep to have really intense, vivid, complicated dreams. However, during the summer it goes into overtime. I had a really complex little dream sequence last night.

The first one was one where I was pregnant and about to have a baby. I remember being SO TERRIFIED throughout the entire dream, but I was faking being really excited because I didn't want to seem scared. I was with Sammi and Ryan at the time. My water broke and I was like, "Uh oh, guys... something just happened..." and I tried to convince myself that I had just had an accident and that no baby was coming, but Sammi was like, "OHMYGOD YOU'RE HAVING A BABY WE NEED TO GO!!!" And the car ride took forever for some reason. I remember sitting there and just rambling on and on nervously about how "Hmm... I didn't think it was time for this yet!... Hahaha... It is weird... So this is really happening... Wow! Hahaha..." We got to the hospital, and it really doesn't look like a hospital... the rooms were quite small and pained bright purple. They kind of just look like living rooms. I just get up in this chair thing with the stirrups and chill. At this point, I thought about how weird it was that I was having a baby right around the time Ashley had her baby and I was bummed that we didn't have them on the same day. Then, a doctor came in and announced brightly that "IT'S ALMOST TIME!" And at this point I was just scared out of my freaking mind about it hurting, or me/the baby dying, or me being a bad mother and I wanted to cry but I was just like, "Yaaaay..." It's funny, because as they were preparing me, I noticed that they didn't put me on any drugs, and I was just relieved because I didn't want needles in me. And I reasoned that "they just don't think it will hurt" so that is why they didn't put me on drugs. Hahaha. But then, after a lot of waiting and anxiety, the doctor was just like, "Oh, well it doesn't look like you'll be having a baby yet. Try again tomorrow morning." And I was relieved, by really scared of the impending morning.

Then, we cut into the future. I guess I didn't have the baby that morning because I was still pregnant. Even though I was still in college, Mr. Wike allowed me to participate in debate still. It was a summer-only program thing where old debaters could come back and do debate again. We were having a meeting about how UNK screwed the debate team budget so we didn't get to do the whole program like we wanted. However, we did have enough money to go to Nationals so we were going to do that. He said that he wanted me to go to Nationals as well as whoever ended up being my partner, and I just remember praying that it wouldn't be David (no idea why). I got really excited that Mr. Wike picked me, but that also got me really nervous, so during speed drills I REALLY SUCKED and I felt like crying because I had lost my speed reading abilities. :( I started to wonder if that is something that happened to a lot of pregnant debaters and started to look it up online.

Then cut to a scene where me and Alysha are studying for something on a couch. Apparently it was Alysha's birthday soon at this point. She was talking about all the things she was going to do for her birthday, and I don't remember what she said, but I distinctly remember the last thing she said was "And then I'll get some birthday sex." And then I was like, "You know what? I didn't get any birthday sex! That is totally not even fair!" And she was like, "Really? Well, I am." And then she giggled. And I pouted about my lack of birthday sex for quite some time before I said, "You know what? I don't even care..." And she just kept giggling at me. But I was very upset. So I proceeded to get really drunk off of this green stuff in a tall bottle. [I hope that didn't mess up the baby...] I just kept mumbling things about how I'd rather have sex than cake and laughing.

The end.

This is redundant, since my last post was about SNL. But the brilliance of Motherlover made me want to make a list of my top 15 favorite digital shorts. There are so many brilliant ones, I don't know how I can narrow it down. But I sure as hell will try!

( There are soooo many LOLZ underneath this cut... )

If you missed it last week because you were too busy playing sadistic drinking games with Ryan, here are some very memorable clips. JUSTING FREAKING TIMBERLAKE, MOTHERFUCKERS.

I've done this in the past, but it never gets old :D

Rules:
--Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
--Post your favorite definition.
--Tag people

1) Your name?
Jenna
[I couldn't just pick one for this XD]

a. A little girl that you can carry in your pocket or in your purse because she is awesome.

Aww, look at the little Jenna

b. The most spectacular ass anyone has ever seen. Large but not to an excessive degree and tight but not overly muscular.

Fabio- "Wow Becky! Check out that chicks butt!"
Becky- "holy shit! That's a Jenna!"
Fabio- "Yeah! I thought Monica's ass was great but it doesn't even compare to this one! "

2) Your age?
18
You're old enough to know better, but young enough to not care

Mom-Act your age not your shoe size, you're 18 for cryin out loud!
Kid-Make me!

3) What should you be doing?
Cleaning

The act of shoving everything in a closet and calling it decent.

"I'm cleaning my closet."
"Where are you shoving all your stuff then?"
"My room."
"Ah."

4) Favorite color?
Yellow

1. The hue of the portion of the visible spectrum lying between orange and green.
2. A racist remark based on the skin color of Asians.
3. That song by Coldplay.
"Yellow" by Coldplay:

~Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.~


5) Favorite Place?
Millard

A district in western Omaha, Nebraska that contains some of the trashiest, dirtiest, sluttiest, and down right inhuman douche bags on the planet. They are known for getting belligerent, sucking dicks, getting stds (the one and only reason why Omaha has come to the top of the charts in number of stds per capita) and teenage pregnancies. Drug and tobacco use is common as well as unprotected sex, sometimes illegally. Despite being so white trash, millard is full of rich, racially confused faggots that commonly wear abercrombie and fitch, pac sun, hollister, american eagle, buckle, and ecko maybe all at the same time. A common meeting place is taco bell or sonic. Technically there are 3 millard schools: millard north, millard west, and millard south who all manage to usually field decent football teams filled with short quick white guys on steroids, going along with this is that most of the students have a G.P.A of 2.0 or lower. The only other thing they have going for them is hot chicks (dumb sluts).

The only cool people in millard are the people that live there and don't go to millard schools or skutt.

6)Last person that I talked to?
Dad

the one who knocked-up your mom

horny guy + no condom = dad

So I am sick and tired of being harassed by my mom and sister about how I look.

It's nothing insulting, really. They still think I am pretty, I guess. But they always tell me that I could look "so much prettier!!!!!!!!!!!" if I grew my hair out. It seems like it gets brought up ALL THE FREAKING TIME. Who thinks about the length of hair that much?

I told my mom I got my hair cut via text while I was in Kearney. All she sent back was a million exclamation points and a sad face. I didn't know it was that shocking...

My sister asked me, in one of the first conversations we had since I came home, "Why did you cut your hair?" in a really condescending voice.

I said, "Uuuuh... because I like it this way."

And she just giggled in that "Oh-you're-so-silly-and-wrong" kind of way that preppy girls giggle, and said, "I just don't get why you'd want to do that!!!"

The next day. We're sitting in my room. There's a picture of Andy and me before homecoming on my dresser. She pointed at it and said, "Why would you cut that off? It looks sooooooooo pretty!"

I said, "Because, it only looked good when I spend 2 hours doing it, like I did before homecoming. And that really isn't worth it."

And she said, "Well, then you should get up earlier then. Because it looks better that way and that's the way you should have it."

THIS... IS SO... IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!

Why do so many people think that, because I am a girl, I have a responsibility to do what makes me "prettiest?" Yeah, I am capable of growing my hair out and spending a million hours trying to get it to look all puffy and lovely for everyone to look at. But I would rather just have something simple, because it is easier for me. But somehow that isn't acceptable... and I don't know why.

Most men have short hair. They don't have to spend hours getting it ready. Why do people think I should? Why is it less desirable for me to have shorter, simpler haircuts just because of my sex? :(

My mom and my sister always talk about girls with short hair behind their backs. I can't tell you how many times I've heard, "EWWWWW. She looks like a man," come from their mouths.

CAN SOMEONE. PLEASE. EXPLAIN!?!?! Why is it inherently more masculine to have short hair!? Why!? What makes different measurements of length determine your gender? And why can't people break those expectations without getting gossiped about?

A GIRL WITH SHORT HAIR DOESN'T LOOK LIKE A MAN. SHE LOOKS LIKE A WOMAN WITH SHORT HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg. You don't even know how frustrating this is for me.

*dies*

( My grades, cut for size )

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is that badass or what!?

I feel like I don't really deserve them... because they were mostly just dumbass classes I was forced to take. And I was just naturally good and didn't actually try... because I didn't care...

But still... that looks fucking amazing. I love seeing all those pluses.

Please, join me in nostalgia!

It's Gotta Be You - Backstreet Boys


Faded - Soul Decision


Tell Me, Tell Me Baby - NSync


( More, more, more! )

Am I the only one that gets irritated when men hold the door open for me, even when I am several yards away from the door? And they're just standing there, waiting for me... they could have made it to their destination in the time that it took me to reach the door...

I don't really see it as polite. I just see it as weird. I can get my own door. It's not like I'm carrying something heavy.

I always say, "Thank you."

I always want to say, "Wow, that was really unnecessary."

1. Are you really ready for 111 questions? I guess.

2. Was your last real relationship a mistake? Ummm... Well, it was worthless, but I think everything has an important lesson along with it. So no.

4. Who did you last say “I love you” to? My Andy. :D

5. Do you regret it? Hahaha no. Because he protects me from evil fairies :P

6. Have you ever been depressed? Yes. Badly.

8. Are you a boy or girl? I'm a grrrrrl.

9. What is your relationship status? In a long-term commitment.

10. How do you want to die? Hmmm... I don't know. I can tell you some ways I don't want to die though! Nuclear holocaust, murder rape, falling out of the window, getting eaten alive by bears...

11. What did you last eat? Popcorn.

12. Played any sports? Yeah. I loved basketball before it became obvious that I was painfully short.

13. Do you bite your nails? Only if they break and they need evened out.

14. When was your last physical fight? I don't physically fight, really.

15. Do you have an attitude? Yeah :P I do.

16. Do you like someone? I don't like ANY OF YOU. Jk. :)

17. What is your real name? Jenna. Plus some other stuff at the end.

19. Are you gonna get high later? Ummm yaaaaa! Cuz I got all sorts of drugz! (...Except not really)

20. Do you hate anyone at the moment? My economics teacher >:(

21. Do you miss someone? Yes. I'M BORED and want companionship... :(

22. Twirl or cut your spaghetti? Cut. I don't like looking like an idiot while trying to suck up a mile long spaghetti noodle.

23. Do you tan a lot? Not at all. It's overrated, really.

24. Have any pets? Yesssss :) A fat cat, a not-fat cat, and a little puppyyyyy!

25. How exactly are you feeling? Super lame.

26. Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? Yes. I ate cotton candy when I drove back to Kearney last time :P

27. Ever made out in the bathroom? Yes :D

29. Are you scared of spiders? No, unless it scurries across my bedsheets or something...

30. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Maybe to observe, not to participate though.

31. Do you regret anything from your past? No. Everything happens for a reason.

32. What are your plans for this weekend? Cheer tryouts, work, Andy, clean, study.

33. Do you want to have kids? Sure.

34. Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M? Yes.

35. Do you type fast? Yeah, but I have to go back and retype most of it because of typos.

36. Do you have piercings? 3 in each ear.

37. Want any more? Nope!

38. Can you spell well? Very :)

39. Do you miss anyone from your past? Sometimes, not not a whole lot.

40. What are you craving right now? sex Ice cream :)

41. Ever been to a bonfire party? No.

43. Have you ever been on a horse? Yep! That was long ago.

44. Kissed someone in the rain? Yes. Yay :)

45. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Ummm... yeah, probably. Oops.

46. Have you ever been cheated on? Not to my knowledge, but I wouldn't be surprised if I actually had been.

47. Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Yeah. That's never good.

49. Would you live with someone without marrying them? Yep.

50. What should you be doing? Maybe studying econ? .....Nah.

51. What’s irritating you right now? The fact that tryouts are tomorrow. DO NOT WANT.

52. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Yep.

53. Does somebody love you? Yeah! I think so! :P

54. What is your favorite color? Yellow.

55. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yes. In a parking lot at night. Haha. Sounds kind of bad now that I say it.

57. Do you have trust issues? Sometimes :/ I tend to think people always have ulterior motives.

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? It's definitely better, but there are still some things that are... irksome.

63. Who was the last person you cried in front of? ...Hmmm. I tend to cry alone; I don't know.

64. Do you give out second chances too easily? I don't think so. I'm pretty stubborn.

65. Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgive... because I never forget.

66. Is this year the best year of your life? It's pretty spiffy.

67. What was your childhood nickname? Jenjen... ugh, gross.

68. Have you ever walked outside completely naked? Hahahaha! No :P

69. Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Hey, I said that earlier! How crazy!

71. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Cuddled! :D

73. What is bothering you? The fact that this question is repeated.

74. Have you ever been out of your state? Mmmmhm!

75. Do you play the Wii? YES. Super Paper Mario with Ryan :) <3

76. Are you listening to music right now? No... and now that you mention it, that is bothering me.

77. Do you like Chinese food? Depends.

78. Do you know your fathers b-day? Yes.

79. Are you afraid of the dark? I can be. It depends where I am.

80. Is cheating ever okay? No. It is really sucktacular.

81. Are you mean? I probably can be.

82. Can you keep white shoes clean? No. Do I keep anything clean? :P

84. Do you believe in true love? Yes!

88. Do you like the outside? When it is warm :)

89. Are you currently bored? Intensely.

90. Do you wanna get married? Indeed!

91. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? I suppose. I prefer other nicknames though.

92. Are you hungry? Kinda... but my stomach feels weird.

93. Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? Hahaha. Yeah. :P

94. What makes you happy? Friends, Andy, my pets, feeling relaxed, summer, pizza...

95. Would you change your name? No

96. Ever been to Alaska? No.

98. Do you watch the news? I read news.

99. What’s your zodiac sign? Taurus.

100. Do you like Subway? Indeeeed.

101. Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? No. Hahaha. It would be hard not to though!

102. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? I'd either say, "Ryan, you know I don't have a penis, right?" Or "Sammi, omg yur such a fag wtf"

103. Do you talk like your friends? Yeah, pretty much.

105. Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them? I do that all the time! I hate the awkward moment where you see someone you kinda know but don't know if you should say hi :P [Don't laugh at me, I'm anti-social... I can't help it.]

106. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? Yeah, but sex doesn't really matter to me...

107. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? Andy

108. Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? Ummm... yeah, it would bug me,

109. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Sammi, about the song "Blame It" by Jamie Fox from a feminist perspective.

110. Favorite lyrics right now? "Excuse me do you want to screw?" -Mindless Self Indulgence. Hahahaha they make me LOL.

111. Can you count to one million? Am I capable? Yes. Do I want to? No.

Are there any songs that you always seem to listen to when you're sad? Why/why not?

I definitely have songs that I ALWAYS listen to when I am feeling bad. I can't listen to those songs when I am happy for that very reason. They end up reminding me of being sad, and then I get sad! :(

Some of the songs I listen to aren't even about being sad really.... and if they are, usually they're not about why I am sad at all. But they just have that melancholy sound to them so they still seem to work. It is very odd.

For the record, I am not sad. This thought just occurred to me because I had my Itunes on shuffle and it kept landing on my sad songs :P

Here is my list:

She Looks to Me - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Lay it Down - Aerosmith
Everything Will Be Alright - The Killers
She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
Kelsey - Metro Station
Please Don't Leave Me - Pink
How I Could Just Kill a Man - Charlotte Sometimes
Scar Tissue - Red Hot Chili Peppers
When You Were Young (Acoustic) - The Killers
Eleanor Put Your Boots On - Franz Ferdinand (All the youtube versions of this song are way too fast...)
Whatsername - Green Day
Read My Mind - The Killers (I guess I can listen to this one when I am happy too, but also gets on my sad playlist sometimes.)
Do You Know What I Am Seeing? - Panic at the Disco (Same as above.)
Dosed - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Walk Away - Franz Ferdinand
Believe Me Natalie - The Killers
Somewhere Only We Know - Keane

Inspired by a post on ask_me_anything

The question was, "What national flags do you find the most aesthetically pleasing?" This question made me realize that I didn't know A BUNCH of national flags, and I felt stupid.

I went to this website which showed me all the flags around the world and I decided to share my favorites with you :) I think most of these make the American flag look uuuugly.

Take a look yourself. What are your favorites?



Antigua and Barbuda


Seychelles


Palau


Macedonia


Kirbati


Greenland


Rwanda

So I never talk about religion because no one fucking understands my point of view. But here it goes.

Ever since I can remember, I've been alright with homosexuality. Before I even knew what homosexuality was I think I was alright with it. That doesn't seem to make any sense, so let me explain.

Me and my cousin Andrea watched the movie "But I'm a Cheerleader" when we were really young. I thought it was just about a cheerleader... doing cheerleading... but that wasn't the case. The movie ended up being about a cheerleader being sent to one of those camps where they try to stop you from being gay. She didn't think she was gay, but everyone around her thought she was. Ironically enough, when she got to the camp, that is when she *figured out* she was gay and started having relations with another girl at the camp. And trust me. Those relations were, um... very intense.

And so there I am, as a young girl, watching this movie... girls making out in their undies... TWO GIRLS... and it didn't even phase me. I don't even think a spot of confusion went through my head. I was never like, "Oh, why are two girls kissing? That doesn't make any sense..." I was just sort of like "Oh. Okay. She really likes that girl. That's cool." It seems to strange me, now that I am more aware of society's opinion of homosexuality, that I would have that sort of reaction. It is like somehow I avoided being socialized into the anti-gay culture and perceived it as just another relationship between two people.

I was a blank slate going into this movie. I had never heard of homosexuality at all. And when I saw it, it just seemed... natural. This makes me wonder... if people weren't socialized so early in their lives to think that being gay is wrong, would people even have that opinion at all?

It seems like there was something inside me, something unaltered and pure, that believed that those relationships were okay. And it is that sort of pureness that I believe to be true. I don't think any sort of socialization is truth, but rather humans are able to arrive at truth using nothing but the minds and souls they were born with. To me, that makes the most sense. I think every person is able to be in touch with God, and we do that by remaining intact with the unaltered souls that we were born with. Our natural essences are closest in line to the way we were made, rather than through the teaching of churches, which is the way we have been altered through the teachings of humans.

This is why I could never be Christian. It is so heavily reliant on the idea of human nature being immoral and perverted, and that we need to be fixed in order to be accepted. I don't think I can ever accept that as truth. Why would our souls, the thing that is the very closest to God and all that is spiritual, need to be fixed?

I was not raised religiously. I thank God every day for this fact [ironically]. Because I was not raised religiously, I was able to keep some of my nature intact. I can still feel my soul underneath everything that society has put in my brain. And notice, even though I was not raised religiously, I have a natural morality within me. I did not need a church in order to tell me not to steal, kill, or cheat. I did that on my own. That leads me to have beliefs in accord with Nietzsche, that humans have a natural morality that can be followed without the teachings of Christianity. Nietzsche also acknowledges that some people are bad, but that is not because of the lack of Christianity in their lives. He just says that once and awhile, there will be a few bad eggs out there. But that is not to say that humans as a race should be collectively categorized as "bad." I don't care what the people in my English class say, it just... makes sense.

In the same way I seem to naturally follow a moral code without any religious obligation, I seem to naturally follow my heart when it comes to love. That is what lead me to believe homosexuality was nothing odd, and then later lead me to become bisexual myself. As a bisexual, I know that "sexual orientation" is not all about the "sexual" part. I know that I am able to fall in love with anyone regardless of sex, not because I love both kinds of genitalia, but because I fall in love with their souls... and souls exist beyond the body, thus the body is irrelevant. Bisexuality is less about sex and more about philosophy for me. So all the Bible passages about homosexuality being sexual perversion seem silly to me. How can something be sexual perversion if it is based on something so spiritual?

I think love is the feeling that gets us closest to God. If there is one thing me and my Ethics teacher agreed upon, it is that falling in love is the most divine experience because it is like two souls are being joined. But because it is about the SOUL, not the GENITALS, I fail to see how this experience is exclusive to people of the opposite sex. I can tell you from personal experience that love that is felt with the same sex feels no different than the love that is felt between people of opposite sexes. Then it is my conclusion, then, that God would want us to be joined in love, no matter who it be with.

I know that devout Christians reading this are probably acknowledging my logic, yet shaking their heads a bit, because they know what I saying has no basis in biblical teachings. I concede: my thoughts about God have nothing to do with the Bible. Nothing at all. But I do not think that makes them invalid. I think that God intends to reach all people, and that no book is needed in order to be in touch with that connection. That simply because I am a human, with a mind and soul that has a place in the spiritual realm, I am able to reason what is true.

This is why quoting biblical passages has no relevance when trying to convince me of God's word. Giving me lines out of it in defense of the anti-gay mentality really doesn't do justice at all. God gave humans reason and logic to determine what is truth. Give me *your* reasoning, not a book's quote, and that is something that may convince me.

So to conclude, you're probably wondering what the fuck kind of religion I am if I am spouting off all this stuff about God yet not following a Christian mindset. It's called Deism. It used to be really popular, especially among America's founders, but since then it has reduced in number. I don't equate popularity with truth, however, so I will continue to follow it even if no one knows what the hell it is. If you want to know how it works, simply to understand my argument more, the Wikipedia page is pretty good. Don't assume I'm an atheist just because I'm not Christian and don't go to your church! Rawr.

/end rant.

This is the reason I can't wait to go home [The cute cat, not my brother crying in the background]:

Bisexuals often get ignored in both heteronormative and queer culture. Upon meeting a bisexual person, an assumption is always made: Either the bisexual is assumed to be straight or assumed to be gay. People don't really think about the fact that there are *other* options out there when they are making this judgment. I find that even a lot of gay people, who are more aware of alternative sexualities that fall outside the gay/straight dichotomy, often will forget about bisexuals when deciding if someone is straight or not.

It is frustrating... because the lack of awareness about bisexuality makes it really hard for bisexuals to have a presence in the world. When a bisexual person comes out to people, often times people don't understand what that means. They equate "bisexuality" with "being gay" for example. Or they equate it with being polygamist, or slutty, or desperate... or just "confused."

It's silly to me, how no one thinks twice about their assumptions. No one ever asks me if I'm bisexual... I have a boyfriend so I must be straight, right? Or maybe I *was* bisexual, but I decided on a male so I must have been straight all along, right? And plus, I don't *look* bisexual. I look and dress like a normal girl. I'm not a slut; I've been with the same person for a year and seven months. And everyone knows bisexuals are sex-crazed. They could never have a healthy monogamous relationship... right?

Sigh.

The point of this post is to acknowledge that there are bisexuals out there that exist. And you may not know who they are, but I bet you've run into quite a few. Be aware that sexualities fall outside the straight/gay categories. And when you think about someone you know and assume them to be heterosexual, think twice. How do you know for sure?

Someone dating the opposite sex may not be straight.
Someone dating the same sex may not be gay.
Someone who looks heterosexual by their appearance might not be.
Someone who looks homosexual by their appearance may not be.

Did you know that these people are bisexual?

-Billie Joe Armstrong, the lead singer of Green Day. He's married to a female... it doesn't make him straight!
-Drew Barrymore, that actress in all the chick flicks like Music and Lyrics. Just because she's in heterosexual relationships on-screen doesn't mean it's that way off-screen!
-Marlon Brando. He was a big masculine hunk. He didn't wear pink sweaters. But guess what.
-Andy Dick. You just thought he was gay, didn't you? Nope. He likes vagina as well.
-Lady Gaga. Yup. All you straight girls that bought her cd so you could play Poker Face in your cars are supporting her bisexual lifestyle :D
-Anne Heche. You know her as the girl who dated Ellen. But she does enjoy men. She's married to a man right now.
-Angelina Jolie. Just because she's fucking Brad Pitt doesn't mean she still doesn't identify as bisexual.
-Calvin Klein. His ads may feature lots of boobs, but that's not all he's into.
-Lindsay Lohan. No, she hasn't "turned gay." No, she isn't just messing around. She's the real deal now. And she and Sammi are going to get gay married in Iowa; you all are invited. <3
-Madonna. She wasn't just screwing around with the whole Britney/Christina kiss. She liiiiiked it.
-Pink. :) Another mainstream artist assumed to be straight... but not true.
-Anthony Rapp, the guy who played Mark from Rent. You just thought he was gay, huh?
-Pete Wentz. You all probably thought either he was straight because of his relationship with Ashlee Simpson, or assumed he was an emo "fag" in disguise. The answer is NEITHER.

So there. I hope I was enlightening, and that possibly I have made a slight difference in the way you interpret sexuality and make assumptions. Remember, you never know...